The Trolly Dilemma and Writing a Published “Book”

I’ve discovered something about myself and my “book” writing.  Please note: I say book but these are steamy/spicy chapters of characters that continue.  I’ve got one book out there at almost 50k, but it’s a bundle of my shorter chapters that string together one story.

With that said, I’m super proud of myself for pulling the trigger on my writing and starting to earn money from my sales.  Right now, I’m about able to keep up with my car payment every month (I can keep up with it, but I’ve stockpiled some money from previous months.  This summer was kind of lean with two 150 dollar totals.  That’s about half what I usually make.  

August saw an uptick in sales and now, in September, stuff is flying off the shelves.  

I’m super thankful for this journey.  Two mornings ago, I was working in the basement and it occurred to me that what’ I’ve got that some don’t is the ability to act.  

I personally think it’s an ability to feel little shame once Ive decided I shouldn’t.  It got me thinking about the Trolley Dilemma of classic psychology fame.  

I’ve always thought that the dilemma was to determine your underlining principles about the value of life (quality vs. quantity).  However, I’ve recently discovered that It’s actually a test to see who will pull the lever for any result.  

That means, to my great surprise, there’s a group of folks out there who will no pull the lever or make a choice and that’s their choice.

I once sat a kid down at Warwick and told them that one of the keys to life is to grab it before it grabs you.  Before you allow it to start making choices for you, you have to go out and own your own choices.  They may be wrong, but by goodness it’s better than having circumstances dictate things.  

That’s kind of where I am with the writing.   I’m not writing “what I want” yet; that’s okay.  I’m learning about plotting, beats, cover creation, trends, marketing, and yes, dogmatic grind writing.  

So, going back to the trolly.  Am I a person who acts.  I really hate sitting on the sidelines. Some of it is “main character’ syndrome.  I’m aware of that.  But some it if lies in this irresistible urge to DO something.  Anything—while I have time left on earth.  

I’m leaving the farm this week.  It’s been quite the run, but I’m ready for a break back home.  I’ll be returning sooner rather than later as fall is a big time on the farm and there are things needing planting here in South Mississippi.  

Thanks for reading.  Here’s come pics to keep ya happy!